My suicide note

To my oldest friend:

How have you been lately? I hope all is well. I’ve heard that you’ve been moving around and making many new acquaintances. I hope you’re not too offended when I say this but I hope you don’t make them feel as miserable as you have made me for the past 20 years. For the longest time I really felt something for you, though, I question today exactly what it was I felt. Anyway, the reason I’m writing you this letter is to tell you first, because of our extensive relationship, that I have decided to commit suicide. I guess you may be wondering exactly why this is? Well, maybe you don’t even care. I can’t really tell most of the time. Here it goes….You make me feel unbelievably horrible. I’ve trusted you with so many parts of my life, only to be let down and put to shame. I really don’t understand. After all we’ve been through. I’ve given you everything and receive nothing in return. There were so many times that I poured my heart out to you and you never even responded. The term “cold shoulder” is way too kind of a phrase for what you did to me in the most important moments of my life. I could ask you why you did this but it soon won’t matter. It’s strange. Being around you has always made me curious about what the next life would be like. I’ve also heard many different opinions from friends throughout the years. To be honest, I’m just ready to go now. I’m sorry. Goodbye.


To Whom It May Concern:

Hey there! I hope all is well. I’m doing just fine. I’ve heard from several of my old friends that you are a bit confused. My new friends tell me that this happens to you quite often. Making people feel as if you actually care for them is something that takes a lot of time and effort. So, purposely trying to ruin them after all those years must take double that effort. Well, maybe not with you. I don’t know why I didn’t commit suicide years ago! Oh. I’m sorry. Maybe I should explain myself a bit. When I said I was committing suicide, I didn’t mean what you refer to as suicide. I figured that you would know something was up when I didn’t show up at your front door afterwards. I was actually referring to dying to myself. I was messed up, but come on; I wasn’t so messed up as to not be able to hear him just a little bit. By now you are probably starting to figure out what I am talking about and you are getting very frustrated. I knew that I was extremely ignorant in that life, but you know the entire story and its outcome and yet you still believe you can change it! I do feel very sorry for those who still believe all the lies that you are feeding them. Convincing people that they can have all the desires of their hearts if they follow you is definitely a good tactic. I fell for it. I want you to know that I will be making every effort to come and get some of my friends. If you think I’m coming alone you are sorely mistaken. I am well aware that I can’t defeat you. I have help! Man I swear I get chills each time I say that! I think I’ll say it again. I have help! Now you must know what I am talking about. If you haven’t I will just have to tell you. I know that the most confusing part of my so called “suicide” were the drops of blood on my first letter. Well, Jesus was with me while I was writing that letter and that was His blood. He put it there to remind you that He shed it for me to cover all of my sins. Please don’t forget that this is a war He has already won. So many of the people you think will continue to follow you are starting to hear his voice. He calls out to them in their darkest hour. He reminds them that they are loved by an Almighty God. I am love by an Almighty God! The death that you tried to make in me was made alive in Christ. I’m sorry satan. Goodbye.

Sincerely,
A. Sinner Redeemed